LittleFluffyCloud

over complicated and under simplified.

ever feel like your life is all jumbled up and confusing and you can't wrap your mind around just one issue without it leading to other thoughts, and by the time you're done thinking it's time to go to bed?
yeah, that didn't make sense to me either.

everything is great for me right now... but rather all-over-the-place.

my personal task list has 93 items on it. really? 93 things that i need to get done outside of work? and the sad thing is, i don't work on completing each item because it needs to be done, but because i just want that freaking number to go down. and that remind me, #94: finish my to-do list.

emotionally i am still drained from 2007. both my life and the lives of my friends were insane, to put it lightly, and being as that i tend to be the go-to adviser for all of my friends, i didn't know how much more i could take. when my friends hurt, i hurt, and when i hurt, bryan hurts. and when bryan hurts, he smokes. and when bryan smokes, he stinks. and when he stinks, it just pisses me off.
2008 has improved slightly for some of those around me, but let's face it... we're actual ADULTS now, and adults' lives are complicated. gone are the days of not caring if you had to drive after 12 beers. nowadays i have a dose of cough syrup and i'm calling yellow cab. people aren't having one-night stands or telling their friends to tell that guy they have a crush on him. no, people are getting divorces and having affairs and having babies and losing babies.

i am starting to see why old people are so angry and mean. by the time i'm 80, i might be running over crowds of people in my cadillac too. (more realistically, the Blue Beast).

but ultimately i'm an optimist and an overrall happy person, so i know i have no right to complain. i am married to a great guy, i live in a nice house (with no maid, natch), i have a good job, and i am surrounded by people who love me.

#95: appreciate life a little more. and thank God for plastic surgeons.

posted on Monday, May 19, 2008